complicated shit

old friends are really nice to have. i love my ÅSa & my Carro. what would i do without them?
unfortunatly it sometimes can be wierd trying to explain and talk and be open when u dont see them so often and when u live two very different lives. Åsa, with her Matz, engaged, pregnent, huge super nice apartment. Matz is this awesome, tall man who takes care of her, who's such a rock in the storm and im just so at ease knowing that he takes care of my girl. And Carro, tough sweet carro, dating this guy who has a super cute dog with a suuuuper cozy little house out in the forest and just so perfect little swedish dream...
idk... sometimes when im here in Sweden i just feel like im wasting my life in USA on a stupid dream of i dont know what, that will never come ture. i guess the biggest reason why it wont come true is because i dont even know what the dream is. im just lost. im lost and im scared and i dont know what the future will bring to me.

stupid complicated stupid stupid life